August 20, 2007
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trying to understand
Though when we write we write usually as if we are certain about the things we write, I’m pretty sure that those of us who write the most, understand the least about the world. Writing is for us a struggle to try and put into words and create some order for all the many many things that don’t make any sense to us.
Like me. I feel I don’t understand anything. But some days I feel as if it all makes even less sense than others. And sometimes my understanding is so lacking that I’m not even aware of the thing that I’m not understanding for some time until some realization comes to me, and then it all makes even less sense.
So all I do is keep on writing and hoping some sort of truth can arise from my mind and be committed to text in the fleeting instance before I forget it.
But why did I ever think that stringing together words in arbitrary order would enable understanding?
