May 10, 2008

• Happiness

  Sometimes you look around you and it just seems like everyone is just
  plain miserable. You look at your friends and family and coworkers and
  even strangers and they are all facing these horrible problems or
  dealing with these deep emotional traumas. Everyone seems down in the
  dumps. Everyone seems like they can’t really get anything to work out
  right. 
  
  
  
  During these times, it just seems like nobody is the least bit happy. 
  And you just can’t help but wonder, is there something in the air? Did
  someone unleash a misery virus upon the populace? Life can’t really be that bad for everyone can it?
  
  
  
  And this feeling can get worse, much worse, if you suffer from the
  affliction known as Xanga Addiction, as I do. (Well Blog Addiction in
  general really.)   You see as you peruse the world of Xanga, you will
  find that there are times when every corner you turn there is someone
  engaged in full fledged lament over you name it.
  
  
  
  The bloggers are angry and bitter over this and that. Crusading
  bloggers lament how their words aren’t heard. Story writers and poets
  sigh over how little interest their works of art generate.  And
  absolutely everyone cries over their failing relationships, their
  estranged family members, their miserable jobs, and their numerous
  failings of character (and of course how much xanga sucks). Lost loves
  and unrequited loves seem like the only kinds of love that exist when
  you read blogs. Abusive and apathetic relationships seems like the only
  lasting relationships that ever persist between people. And everyone’s
  family just so happens to be tyrannical and controlling. On top of all
  that every single person thinks themselves hopelessly over emotional,
  out of control, unorganized, inexperienced, unlucky, and incapable of
  succeeding at all the things they try and pursue. Everyone thinks they
  have made horrible mistakes. Everyone seems to even doubt that they are
  really a good person. In the world of Xanga, it never seems otherwise.
  
  
  
  Even the famous pillars of Xanga seem to have their dark times. Those
  times when they seem disgusted with the world and with the community
  and often enough with themselves. And of course they have to share it
  with us in long and detailed blog entries or maybe just quick and
  mysterious pulses.  And even those who strive *not* to put much of
  themselves into their blogging still manage to have their moments where
  they too seem lost in a moment of deep trauma, sadness, rage, or
  despair. And that’s not even taking into account those situations where
  people get into direct conflicts with other bloggers. Those result in
  some deep misery spreading in blogs and comments far and wide.
  
  
  
  I am as guilty or perhaps more so to contributing to this phenomen than
  everyone else of course. I don’t pretend to be otherwise. When there
  are things that bother me, I blog about them, though often, mercifully,
  I keep the most depressing rants under protected (or just in private
  journals) and spare the general readership my sorrow. Still, no doubt,
  there are times when others have read my blog in conjunction with all
  those others and thought as I have often thought “man, everybody’s life
  is so screwed up!”
  
  
  
  But to be honest… I wouldn’t have it be any other way.
  
  
  
  I learn from other people’s problems. I grow from seeing parts of their
  lives and how they deal with them. And I can, sometimes, try and help.
  Albeit it is unlikely that one quick scrolled comment or message can
  have any kind of significant impact on anyone who is really having any
  real substantive problems in their lives. But still, it can feel good
  to try. To interact with people. To try and share in their lives just a
  little itsy bit. Maybe we can somehow say something that means
  something to someone some day. Maybe it will make a difference.  And
  maybe in turn they will one day say something to us and all unknownst
  to them it will make all the difference in the world to us and change
  our lives for the better. Even if it is, only a tiny little bit of a
  change. Maybe someone can make us see things differently.
  
  
  
  It’s unlikely. I know. But sometimes it does happen. And it’s a
  beautiful thing. That’s one of the many things that makes blogging an
  amazing experience. I wouldn’t ever want it to change.
  
  
  
  But even so, there are just these days when I just get overwhelmed by
  it all. So much misery and anger and hatred and sadness and of course
  fear. So very much fear. 
  
  
  
  And I just can’t help but wonder you know? I just wonder…
  
  
  
  Where in the HELL are all the HAPPY people out there?
  
  
  
  They’ve gotta exist. Not everything can be sadness and sorrow all day
  every day. I believe that joy exists out there in equal measure to
  saddness. It’s just that nobody wants to talk about it. Maybe we’re all
  afraid we’ll make the bitter people all the more jealous and angry so
  we hold back.
  
  
  
  Or maybe life just does suck for most people.
  
  
  
  Then again, maybe it’s attitude. Maybe we all are just need to make
  ourselves feel better. Maybe we just need to get a little happier about
  things. To look on the bright side for once. And maybe we sometimes need a little help too.
  
  
  
  Well luckily for all of you xangans out there, secretly I’m a Wizard. A
  Sorcerer really. OK so not so secretly anymore. Ah well. But I’m pretty
  good. I’ve got a lot of a magical spells in my repertoire that I can
  call upon as the need arises. 
  
  
  
  And just for you, I’m going to cast my very best spell.  Trust me. It’s
  a good one. I’ve only cast it once before, but now seems like as good a
  time as any to bust it out again.
  
  
  
  Hmm, what were those magic words again?
  
  
  
  Ah yes. I remember now.
  
  
  
  OK. Here goes.
  
  
  
  Ahem.
  
  
  
  ONE.  TWO. THREE.
  
  
  
  *****   EVERYBODY CHEER UP!!!!!!!   *****
  
  
  
  
  
  There.
  
  
  
  ::Nods in satisfaction::
  
  
  
  That’s better.
  

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