May 21, 2008

• happy dark songs

  I realized today that I always had the wrong attitude about music. I was always looking for songs that were inspirational, motivating. You know the whole “You can do it!” kind of a song. So like Gospel songs, songs like “I will get there”  or “You’ve got the touch”.

  But then I was listening to this song and it starts…

  “If I could tell the world just one thing
  It would be that we’re all OK”

  Aww how sweet! And I thought you know what? This isn’t cheering me up at all. Nope. I like the songs, but they aren’t working for me.  No good. It should be more like:

  “If I could tell the world just one thing
  It would be, I hate you all!”

  You see, I realized then that what I really wanted was Dark Songs. Songs about how screwed up the world is. Songs about how everything just sucks, you know? Yup that’s more my style. That makes me happier. Maybe it’s cuz I can listen to the song and say haha at least my life aint *that* bad! Or maybe “Oh good! Somebody else is as screwed up as me!” Or maybe, “Wow I’m so glad my life doesn’t make me whine about it like they do!”

  So maybe something that goes like:

  “Everyone I know goes away
  In the end
  And you could have it all
  My empire of dirt
  I will let you down
  I will make you hurt”

  is kinda cool. But there’s just something missing about it. Sure it’s dark and that’s good. But still, it isn’t quite right.

  I thought about it a while and then I realized the problem. This song isn’t cheery enough! It’s just not upbeat enough for my taste! I need something that’s more like this:

  “‘Cuz we lost it all
  Nothing lasts forever
  I’m sorry
  I can’t be perfect
  Now it’s just too late and
  We can’t go back
  I’m sorry
  I can’t be perfect”

  or better yet:
  “I’m walking down the line
  That divides me somewhere in my mind
  On the border line
  Of the edge and where I walk alone

  Read between the lines
  What’s fucked up and everything’s alright
  Check my vital signs
  To know I’m still alive and I walk alone “

  or even better:
  “Is everybody going crazy?
  Is anybody gonna save me?
  Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
  Tell me what’s going on?
  If you open your eyes
  You’ll see that something is wrong!!”

  Get it?  These songs just amuse me to death. All Boohoo but with smiles on everybody’s faces! It’s like do they really mean it? What they are saying? Then why are they so damnably happy about it! And  yet…  it works too. It makes me feel happy. Even when life is absolutely horrible.  They’re perfect. I never thought I’d like this genre of songs. Definitely not like anything I listened to in the past.

  And then I remembered an old old favorite of mine. The pivotal example of this genre. It goes something like this:

  “
  So with sadness in my heart,
  I feel the best thing I could do,
  Is end it all, and leave forever.
  What’s done is done, it feels so bad,
  What once was happy now is sad.
  I’ll never love again.
  My world is ending.

  [Refrain] I wish that I could turn back time,
  ‘Cause now the guilt is all mine.
  Can’t live without the trust from those you love.
  I know we can’t forget the past,
  You can’t forget love and pride.
  Because of that, it’s killing me inside.

  It all returns to nothing,
  It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down. “

  HAHAHAHA!  That’s from like one of my top ten least favorite movies “End of Evangelion”. But I absolutely *love* the song. I always have. But I’ve been afraid to admit it because of the weird looks I knew I’d get.

  But all of these songs are cool. They’re all like “YAAAAAYYYY LIFE SUCKS!!”

  These are my favorite songs now and I’m not ashamed to admit it! Long Live The happy Dark Songs!

  I need to find more of these.

  Any suggestions?

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