June 23, 2008
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Where were you one year ago today?
Wow this is an amazing question. A year ago I was living in a small apartment in Elkton, MD right on the border between Delaware and Maryland. I was working for a small telemarketing firm as a programmer in a job I was fairly good at but disliked. But I disliked it less than I had ever disliked it in the past. It was the least intolerable that it had ever been. heh. And like I said I was good at it and it was stable and I was slowly making progress making things better and earning more respect from my peers and all that. I earned more than enough to survive easily. I had no significant debts except my college debts which were easily manageable and I’d just paid off my 2006 Mazda. Everything was completely and totally stable.
And I was really and truly completely unhappy.
Only here’s the weird thing. I didn’t even know it. I went about my daily routines and I had no idea that I was miserable. There wasn’t anything *bad* about my life you see. Nothing at all. It was just that there wasn’t anything particularly good about it either. I barely heard from my friends, new or old. And though I saw my immediate family often we didn’t do all that much together. I was sort of just getting by.
And I had no idea that in about three weeks I was going to randomly decide one Friday night that I was going to quit my job on Monday.
Had you told that person in a year he’d have several brand new friends, be living in Indianapolis, after having spent six months unemployed in DC, and now having a completely different job with his own office, and be borderline poor in spite of making much more money than I had before and having a much lower cost of living, considering taking on a roommate, thinking about selling his car, and sitting here writing a xanga entry about it while listening to Simple Plan on a new ipod he just got in the mail today… probably the only part of that he’d believe is the part about writing about it in Xanga.
That’s life for you.
I’m much happier now.
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Comments (10)
That was pretty interesting. You just decided to up and quit your job? That is sort of a hard realization to have on your own. I would think something would have some how pushed it along.
I’m glad you’re happier now. ^_^
That IS a good question!!! Wow! I just realized that I was on the opposite end of the globe one year ago today! Cool!
@raindrops23 - Yeah I did. There were a lot of little things that lead up to it. I think the pressure was building for a long time and a part of me just knew I didn’t want to be the person I was back then any more. And I guess I’m the kind of person who has to be jarred into changing. Quitting was pretty much the only strategy I knew to force myself to change since there wasn’t anything or anyone else around who was going to help me to do that.
And I *am* much happier now! I’m still not doing what I really want to do or living where I really want to live, and i still get depressed often, but I’m still happier with myself on the whole than I’ve been in a long long time.
And now I’m going to work on becoming even happier still.
hurray for happiness!
Thank you! =D As of right now, they don’t really have stories, but I’ll let you know when those transpire!
Haha. If you ever need a name, just ask. All I need is a description. =D
@nephyo - Good for you! ^_^ I think life is too short to be unhappy for too long.
Scarier still is the thought of someone from our future stepping in front of us right now and saying where we will be in a year or five years. We won’t believe them either!
It’s amazing how much can change in one year, isn’t it? Sometimes making a break like the one you did is much needed. (I’ve done the same before.)
amazing how life changes…
@polymergoddess - Indeed I think I would probably beat the crap out of said person. Not only would I think they were lying, but even if they were telling the truth and I’d believed them I’d be pissed because they were spoiling all the fun!