July 10, 2008
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something else…
These days I am so bored. I’ve got plenty to do. Tons. I’m just bored anyway.
I’ve got that feeling again. The need for something else. Something
more. It’s like this feeling like I’m not involved in enough stories.
As if life is too simple. Too plain. The feeling that there’s more out
there for me that I haven’t found yet.
I always feel like this. Back when I was a kid my Mom says my favorite
phrase was “I want something else”. And when I was in my last place. I
moved here. And before that I moved there. And before that I quit my
job. And before that I moved to that other place. And before that I thought about
dropping out of college. I didn’t. I’m glad I didn’t…. But I wish I
did.
There aren’t enough stories. Not enough is happening. Objectively
everything is going well. It’s all working out. I’m meeting people,
helping people, doing well at work. Everything is fine… Just fine…
A conversation. Someone said roughly (I paraphrase) “I’m OK with the way things are now. But one day I’ll want something more.”Exactly. That’s exactly it. I’m okay. Right now. Not great. Not terrible. Just okay.
But the question is: How long will being just okay be okay?
So Bored.
There’s gotta be something else….
Comments (7)
may you live in interesting times~ chinese curse
Even a Chinese curse ^ is better than nothing sometimes, huh?
The grass is always greener….
Well i suppose you could always get involved in something extra….mabye some voulenteer work… Then you can try out many different things! ^_^
I’m right there with you. Seriously. I’m getting restless, and I can’t figure out why…
ah a wander, there is something to be said about always wanting more. if you shoot for the moon, if you don’t make it you will still land among the stars.
but there is also something about knowing when it’s as good as it gets. ^_^
it’s a tough balancing act that most people tend to be conservative on. like i have a well paying job, a good house, healthy kids, money in the bank, so why rock the boat? so the best time to rock the boat is when you don’t have any of those things… ie when you’re young. ^_^
so do what you need to do.
find happiness! go! hehe.
@raindrops23 - yup! But where to go next? hmmm….
Of course the problem is everywhere I go, it’s still the same me in the new place. So maybe I should stay right here and work on making myself into a person who can find joy and satisfaction with what he has. Or maybe better myself so that I can achieve more when I do leave.