July 30, 2008
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a pointless entry
Most of you subscribers are new here and most of my entries of late have been somewhat unusual for me. I should probably do some sort of re-introduction kind of post so you get to know me. But I don’t really feel like it. I should also finish my follow up to the post on blog replies. I don’t feel like that either. I should write another one of those writing assignments or maybe post my weekly rant. But I don’t feel like those things either. Or I should write something awesome and funny and cool. But guess what?
I’ll just write something about what I’m feeling right now.
I’m at work. It’s almost 1 AM and I’m at work sitting in my office. Why? Well because for the last week I haven’t done shit for my job. And now I have to get caught up. What have I been doing with myself? Was I just wasting time?
That’s the thing though. I didn’t feel like I was wasting my time. I was writing. And I was interacting with people on Xanga. And I was chatting with people. And I was spending time with and getting to know friends in real life too. I was helping people. And everything I was doing felt more valuable, more fulfilling, and more meaningful than what I was supposed to be doing. Which was stupid programming.
Yes I’m just whining now. I get lazy sometimes. But I am capable of and willing to work hard. I better be since I’ve got to get this junk done by tomorrow. I just find this all so pointless.
My boss loves his job. That’s why he’s a good and nice boss. All my good bosses were like that. They loved what they did. It fulfilled them. They wanted to spend time on it. Even their free time. It was not a struggle for them to work. It was a struggle for them *not* to work. I’m not like that. Not with this.
It doesn’t fulfill me. It never will. It’s drivel.
And yeah this is gonna sound really arrogant but I think I’m way better than this. I can and should be doing something more meaningful. What is the point of just getting by?
But anyway yeah I get in this kind of a mood about once a week or so.
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Comments (14)
Fight the establishment! Quit your job! Show the man he can’t tell you what to do! THE REVOLUTION WILL BE TELEVISED!!!
@fullmetalbunny - been there. done that. and now I’m back in the same place again…
My husband is good at his job and gets paid well to do it. It’s not his passion, though. His elderly visitation and nursing home ministry are what he’s passionate about.
I never thought that you felt like you could do something better. That, you didn’t tell me on AIM. If you do, then I prolly would say quit the job. If you feel like your strengths are not maximized, quit the job. If you feel like you’re undervalued, quit it now. But that’s just my opinion. You should always consider pros and cons..
I think we all have days, or weeks, like that. You will get it done! I trust you will find a job that you love as well.
((hugs)) You’re not being arrogant~just being truthful with yourself. Something tells me once you set your mind to something you get it.
I don’t know. I find the moment that I’m obligated to do something I’m passionate about, I lose a lot of the passion.
-Anna.
Try looking for something your passionate about as a job BEFORE you quit.We Xangans want you to be happy =) (make sure you already have the other job before you quit through
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@saintvi - I need something like that maybe. Something outside of work that fulfills me.
@purplepixiepoo - heh. well I’ve never felt that a job maximized my strengths. I can’t even imagine what that would feel like. unfortunately reason tells me I can’t quit now.
@lostmojo - thanks. I hope so…
@buckeyegirl31 - i hope you are right.
@StorybookAuthor - a very very good point. maybe we should redesign society so that everyone somehow feels as if they have no obligations and are doing what they are doing for themselves but in reality are helping to perpetuate the social system. hmmm. this deserves more thought.
@zunky - good idea! Don’t worry I don’t intend to quit any time soon
Where do you work?
@ughstupididiot - at a small unknown company in Indiana.:)
@nephyo - Well I guess that’s real great……? haha Are you at work right now?
@ughstupididiot - yup, you guessed it. half asleep at work not getting enough work done as usual. but i did get a lot done last night.
@nephyo - yeah, same here… so are you happy with your job? what exactly is it you do?