April 22, 2009

• to write or not to write

  Talk like Shakespeare day is apparently coming up on Thursday hence the philosophic nature of my subject today.  No I’m serious. That’s a real thing. http://talklikeshakespeare.org/   Apparently pirate talk wasn’t enough for people. They wanted more crazy language days.  

  I’d like to  take note that according to this article, talk like Shakespeare day was announced on April 20th. That’s 4/20. It makes me wonder if the guy who came up with this was high when he decided it. I would not be at all surprised.  Honestly it’s going to be a pain of a day. I lack the verbal prowess to do a proper Shakespearean dialogue so I might just skip out on it.  I’d much prefer a day where everyone questioned each other like Socrates. That’d be really awesome.

  So those of you who follow such things may have noticed that obviously I haven’t written much lately. My brain has been kinda bouncing all over the place lately and I haven’t been able to focus on anything at all. A lot of things have been happening in the present and in the mean time the future and past keep bouncing back and forth competing for space in my brain.

  Do you ever wonder why you have the friends you have? Or why you know the people you know? Where’d they come from? Where will they go afterward? No connection really stays the same forever and eventually people go off to do whatever it is they do. So why are they here, in your life, right now? Are you supposed to learn something from them? Or are they supposed to learn something from you? What if you each miss the lessons?

  I was trying to think of stories from my past to recount. It’s always a difficult process for me. I can’t really find anything that really focuses my mind on the past. I remember a lot but it’s all fuzzy. There are few images, more like a bunch of dry facts like something you would read in a dictionary.  It’s like I’ve already shared the best stories. I was never really very good at reminiscing. 90% of the time when I gather with people and they start reminscing I don’t even remember the events about which they are reminiscing. I just smile and nod. Is that weird? And yet people seem to find reminiscing so much fun! It makes me think that maybe I should take more stock in my daily experiences and try and *remember* them better. Maybe make them into clever sounding stroies that I can tell boastfully or jokingly the next time I see the people involved. Is this not the normal way people do it? Do you learn how to do that somewhere? Maybe it’s another lesson missed.

  I don’t know if or how much I’ll be writing for the remainder of April. My enthusiasm for some of my writing has dried up. I still want to write, I just don’t want to exert the effort. And I really hate it when I try to write something great, exert a ton of effort only to have it fall flat. It’s annoying.

  If I do write then here are some of the topics I intend to write about:

  1. Climate Skeptics -  I want to write about how they are full of shit
  2. Drug Legalization – yes it makes sense. no legalizing marijuana will not “fix” the economy
  3. An Intro to Me – I always wanted to write one of these and never could figure out how to do it in typical Nephyo Style. I need to have something to show people though who are curious about who this crazyass they stumbled upon is.
  4. Crazy Ideas – I have a ton of crazy ideas that have been popping into my head over the last couple of months so I want to just describe some of them.
  5. Web Comics – A post with sample comics and links to some of my favorite web comics I sometimes read ending with a request for others to share their favorite web comics
  6. In Defense of Pirates – political post cuz somebody really needs to defend the pirates. no i’m not joking.
  7. Obama and Drugs – grrr, want to rant about his dumbass response to marijuana legalization question and bad policies about the same.
  8. Education – what an ideal education system might look like

  That’s IF I write anything. I might not.

  Have you ever been lying in like the most perfectly comfortable position ever and feeling completely at peace and utterly unwilling to move when suddenly you realize you need something and it’s annoyingly located all the way across the room? It’s annoying isn’t it? You have to get up! Gah!

  For this reason I really want Telekinesis to exist. That’s pretty much the only reason I’d use it. The only other good use would be pulling off pranks but that’s only cool if you are the only one or one of the few people with telekinesis. If everybody has telekinesis it would suck. I think we’d have to have a universal pledge against pranking.  Otherwise things would get out of control quickly.

  Well since I don’t have telekinesis and they say everything fantasy is just a reflection of Science maybe I can compromise. I’d need to be rich or at least moderately wealthy. But I think I could outfit my house with a series remote controlled conveyer belts and large robotic arms hanging from the ceiling. If I integrate it into a smart control system I can even make it voice operated. So I can say, glass of water, and it will pour and bring me a glass of water. How cool would that be? It would make me lazy though but I think I’d only use it for those times when I’m perfectly comfortable and can’t stand the thought of moving.

  Sadly though I’m not rich or moderately wealthy and such a system would take a long time to perfect anyway so for now I have to get my ass up. Yuck! And I imagine you probably had to do the same last time this happened to you. Doesn’t it suck?

  And you know what the worst part is? When you go back and lie back down or sit back down in your super comfy chair, it’s never *quite* the same as it was before you got up is it? I mean it’s still comfy but it’s no longer perfect.  You’ve ruined it.  By moving. You disrupted your perfect comfort. Man it pisses me off!

  You know the same kinda thing happens with writing too. Sometimes you’re just in the zone and it’s just going perfectly. The words are like flowing at the speed of sound and you just KNOW what to write and you KNOW it’s going to be awesome. And then!

  Crap!

  You get distracted. Maybe you see something out of the corner of your eye. Or you find you have to do something. Maybe you suddenly remember that doctor’s appointment you’re almost late for. Or some annoying past thought of something that was bothering you flitters into your brain breaking your concentration.  Or perhaps most similar of all you find you need some piece of information to finish what you are writing that you just don’t have available and have to break to look it up. Or there’s one litlte thing you can’t think of like the name of a new character you are about to introduce. 

  Whatever happens you’re flow gets broken. And it’s SOOO annoying! Sure once you get done whatever it is you need to do you can get right back to writing, but it’s never QUITE the same as it was before. It’s no longer perfect. It’s just another thing you’re writing. grrrrr

  I can’t tell you how many writing projects I’ve started and then abandoned because of experiences like that which disgusted me so much I didn’t want to finish it. It very literally drives me crazy!! But there’s no writer’s telekinesis to help you. There’s only diligence and quiet and concentration and prepartion to prevent you from these horrible outcomes.

  Anyways, I’m thinking I might also write a random entry about a lot of the movies I’ve been watching lately. I’ve seen a ton. I’ve got a few more I’ll be watching soon too, like City of Ember, Crank, and Casablanca. Weird trio huh? I may also talk about books I’ve read and games I’ve played. I may also do a few more of the writing suggestions people made in response to my previous request.  That’s still IF I write anything that is.

  Have you ever been missed some possibility that should have been mind numbingly obvious but for some reason your brain just refused to contemplate the possibility? Like an obvious precaution you should have accounted for but like a moron didn’t.

  And then once it finally hit you, did you freak out? Like I mean like totally overreact in fear of the possibility and full of self hatred for your idiocy in not seeing it. Like how on Earth did I not even CONSIDER that? An I’m a total dumbass, kinda feeling.

  I’ve also got some long term writing projects I never really wrote that I really want to get done one of these. The biggest of these is probably a series of entries titled The Top 10 Superpowers. I thought up a ranking of the top 10 super powers many many months ago. My elder brother assisted me. It’s awesome and funny but it takes a while because I have to include evidence and proof, pictures and videos and the likes. It’d be at least 6 entries in the series, but probably closer to 10. This project I think would be general interest enough that it might be worthy of using my built up languishing credits to try and plug it from time to time. 

  Have you ever been so consumed with worry that you couldn’t quite think straigth for a long period of time? Like the kind of fear that made you unable to sleep at night? And then when you found your fears were unfounded did you find that like you couldn’t quite get out of that worrying mode of mind? Like you just got this sense that SOMETHING bad is going to happen. Maybe not that thing you were worrying about but SOMETHING. It’s like worrying became so natural that you can’t stop no matter how hard you try. It’s rather annoying.

  I’ve also had for the longest time this urge to post regularly about good resources people can use to learn things about the world, to get different perspectives and learn truths they can’t get elsewhere. And in so doing start to open up a dialogue whereby people can suggest ideas for places for ME to go to learn more about the world and gain unique perspectives too. That’d be awesome as it would make Xanga more informative for everyone. And I really believe the more informed we all are the better off the world will be.

  Have you ever written something so random that almost nobody can possibly respond to all of it and most people probably won’t even know where to start, just because it’s just so all over the place?

  I have.

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