Month: June 2007

  • writing emulation

    If I had to choose one writer in all the world’s history whose writing I could magically emulate in style and effect it wouldn’t be anyone anybody is likely to suspect. I would not pick any of the famous historical authors or philosophers or thinkers in history. No Shakespeare or Tolstoy or Hemmingway or Joyce or Proust.  And aslo no Plato or Niestche or Marx or Locke. It would not be any famous politician or speachwriter either. I would not choose to write like King or Lincoln or Jefferson or Adams. 

    And if you think you’d get a better clue as to what I might pick by knowning my tastes in modern fiction and stories, you might be right but I’m betting you are still likely to guess wrong. My favorite authors whose skill in prose awes me regularly would not make the cut either. No Rowling, no Martin. Not Bujold, Hobb, Gemmell, Weis, Hickman, Card, Brin, Zelazny, Alexander, Williams, Anthony, Jordan, Bradly, Brooks, Brust, Donaldson, Drake, Farland, Feist, Friedman, Goodkind, Kay, Hamilton, Rawn, Rice, Salvatore, Silverberg, Gaiman, or Carey. Nor Ray Bradbury. Nor Toni Morrison. Nor Kurt Vonnegut.   I would not even choose the great master Tolkein himself to emulate. None of them.

    If you think that you would find better luck looking at TV, Video Games or movies think again. Much as I respect Stracynsky and Whedon, I would not emulate them or any other television writer. I would not want to match Lucas. And I wouldn’t want to make Hinrobu Sakaguchi proud either.

    Are you think that I would emulate no one? Well wrong again. There’s definitely someone I would pick, someone whose works I would emulate its just someone you are unlikely to suspect.

    Look toward anime and manga then? Ok good. Getting closer. But if you are thinking of my very favorites, ie Cowboy Bebop and Haruhi your still not quite on to it. I would not even emulate the mad genius of Anno Hideaki or the brilliant wonder of Hayao Miyazaki. Nope. That isn’t it.

    Believe it or not, and I’m sure you won’t believe it, but the one writer in all the world who I would pick to have the ability to write exactly like if I chose would actually be the author of the manga Hikaru no Go.  What? Why, you ask?

    Simple. Of all stories, Hikaru no God embodies a writers ability to make people care about characters regardless of what conflicts they are in. That ability to make me feel enthralled with a set of characters and really dependent on wondering what they are going to do next and how they lead their lives even though they weren’t doing anything of particular relevance is just an extraordinary thing to behold. I would want my stories in an ideal world to have that feature to them. They can be important and substantive too and have clever and complex plots neither of which are true of Hikaru no Go, but I would want all of that to be wrapped around that core of story telling that just creates wholly sympathetic characters who you aren’t even sure why you care about them at all.

    The runner up in this consideration is somewhat more famous. That would be Rumiko Takahashi and for much the same reason. Her stories have more of an overt plot or purpose be it slapstick humour or high adventure. But even so it is pretty much totally irrelevant. Those things are like added benefits. You watch Inuyasha and you watch Ranma wholly for the character development, because the writer is a master of developing characters you care about beyond all reason just like with Hikaru no Go.

    Of course the truth is these authors appeal to me so much as far as being entities worthy of my emulation goes simply because they embody the exact opposite of my current writing style. I simply have no idea how to write a character that any one would actually care about, and that’s probably in large part because I practice indifference with such regularity in all that I do that I have not built up the requisite experience base to build such characters upon.

    Well since nobodies going to come over from a higher dimensional existence and grant me the ability to write with the skill of such authors that I oh so much admire, there’s no point chasing after them and trying to write in a way that I cannot. Instead I’ll just have to write in a different manner, perhaps even the exact opposite of how these writers write. Rather than beautiful character depictions being the heart of my stories, characters will be the least part, there depictions exaggerated simplicity. They will merely be the mechanism to carry forth more subtle and ironic messages and plots. I think a good story can still be crafted in such a fashion even though it will never be worthy of mention even in the same sentence with such extraordinary works I admire. I think it can still be interesting to someone. And in any case I am sure I would still obtain deep satisfaction in writing  such stories regardless.

  • independence vs freedom

    Why do we celebrate independence but not freedom?  They are clearly different. Independence is the lesser virtue if it is even a virtue at all. It is neither necessary nor sufficient in order to be free. Many living in this country back when we gained Independence were not at all free, were in fact slaves.

    Indeed, I think it is even possible to be free and yet wholly dependent. This seems clearly true, unless we would think that merely because children depend upon their parents for survival that they are enslaved to them.  No. You can be wholly beholden unto others but still be free even if exercising that freedom may well lead to your destruction.

    Perhaps we celebrate independence rather than freedom because freedom is an ideal that you strive toward but can never be fully realized whereas independence is something concrete you can reach through a set of actions and accomplishments. Once you are self employed you are independent of your job. Once you grow up and leave home you are independent of your parents. Once your nation breaks off from England and England stops trying to force you to remain their colony then you have become independent.

    But that doesn’t mean that we are free. Rather, we were somewhat free before and somewhat free after and the act of becoming independent didn’t make us even a tiny bit more free.

    Is it worth celebrating then? Maybe. Certainly it probably felt good to be independent. Independence is often associated with greater power and power is usually pretty intoxicating, dangerously so.

    Minimally we can celebrate what the United States has become now so many years after it obtained its independence which is without a doubt a much freer and better society than it was then. Would we have been as free had we not gained our independence? Who can say? But that doesn’t mean we can’t celebrate our moment on independence that put us on the current course in light of what has come to be as a result of being on that course. Likewise it would be equally reasonable to celebrate the day we had chosen to be dependent upon England and become its colony had such a day ever occurred in light of whatever future good occurred under that course of history.

    Besides, any excuse to take a day off is a good thing.

  • nicknames

    Back in the old days a couple of my friends had this absurd nickname for me. It didn’t anger me really as I’ve never cared what anyone calls anyone. Hey you is all the means of address anyone ever needs. But it did bother me a little and at the time I wasn’t sure why. I thought it might be the lack of cleverness of it. I mean surely they could have come up with something better.Or perhaps it was the lack of tact in their choice. I have a subtle mind so I could immediately see how that particular choice might be perceived as an insult by someone more sensitive than I. But now that I think about it, I’ve never cared about tact, and although I like things that have style, I’ve never faulted anyone for being unoriginal.  So I must have had another reason for being bothered by the name.

    Now I think I know the real reason the nickname bothered me. It’s because I didn’t have any nickname for them! One sided nicknames are no fun. Rather it should be like a group of people where they all have the mutually agreed upon terms that refer to them. Like a super hero team.

    And so the nicknames I think should have the characteristics of a comic book teams nick names too. That is they should mostly be single word easy to apply terms that people don’t usually think of as names.  If a nickname is two words then they usually together make up a single concept, e.g. “Black Hole” rather than being two unrelated words strung together, e.g. “Flame Sorrow” wouldn’t work.   Sometimes the single word used as the nickname is actually short for a longer expression. For example you might call someone “Look” if you associate the phrase “Never look back” with that person for some reason. Or it might even be a convoluted indirect reference. So you might call someone “Oz” meaning “she reminds me of Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz”.

    Unlike say an internet username there is no desire for it to be particularly unique throughout the whole world or even a very large group,  just unique amongst the group applying them is good enough. The nicknames are not necessarily self chosen but there should be some sense of agreement amongst the group about each nickname.

    Most commonly the nickname is related to what the person does, ie how they behave or how they lead their lives or their personality or what they care about in some fundamental way. It isn’t necessarily the truth of that though but more often those fundamental aspects that others perceive in them. Sometimes the nickname is subtly and sometimes not so subtly ironic. I.e.  someone who often blows his top, might be assigned the nickname “Tranquil.” Other times the nickname seems to apply all the time and be appropriate to the outside world but for the group that knows the person well, the name ironically is utterly unappropriate because the person usually doesn’t behave that way at all when their defenses are down.

    Anyway, all this is why the nickname is not usually self chosen.  Sometimes the nickname arises sort of spontaneously. Some event triggers it and the character is known in accordance with what they did on that day. More frequently just over time people start thinking about the person in that term and it just starts to fit them.

    As with comic book nick names it is entirely expected that the people using these names would generally start to have mixed feelings about them, maybe even from the beginning. That’s appropriate too. Any nickname that has any power to it shouldn’t be one that sits entirely comfortably with the person it is being applied to.

    Actually as I thought about this I realized that for most of my friends from back in those days I already had terms that in my minds eye I used for them. I rarely referred to them with the terms directly thought sometimes I may have done so without even thinking about it. Others I never could come up with a good nickname for. Anyway here are the nicknames of the people I knew that I have come up with. Those I am confident of as well as those I think probably need to be revised:

    Traveller. Entrepreneur. Calculus. Dreamer. Serenity. Beatdown. Prophet. Daze. Steady. Clever. Motivator.

    I of course would want to be referred to as Sorcerer. Though of course I’d probably just be called that other term instead.

    It is also possible for a person to have two nicknames as in the comic book fashion. So I could be Sorcerer when I am doing something cool and that other term most of the rest of the time.

    It is also quite likely for a person’s nickname to change over time usually in response to certain life changing events. So, Motivator might turn into Vanish. Dreamer might become Ringbearer. Calculus might become Professor. And so on and so forth. Actually Professor is a name I’ve been called before too but not in the same mode. When I was called “Professor” it was as in short for “The Absent Minded Professor”. 

    Anyway, that amuses me. Coming up with these names. I shall have to think on them more.

  • circling self

    What is. What was. Is. Was.

    Some times you feel like you’ve gone full circle, shifting through
    realities to become what you once were. Is it real though? An act,
    appearence? Does it matter?

    Feel the weight of them. Their substance. Feel their shape, their
    curve. What I was in my left hand. What I am in my right hand.

    Why is it that I never remember the important parts of a conversation
    until months past its day, an eternity past its point of greatest
    relevance?

    Shall I cast one aspect aside? Abandon those thoughts and dreams that
    defined the you that was once or the you that has become? Is it even
    possible? Or would it only be false shadows of a you that had vanished,
    grasping glimpses of fading light?

    Past in the left hand. Present in the right.  Trace the fingers around
    their circumference. Note the cracks and crevices in the past. See the
    fault lines in your nature, note the shallow places, the bumps and
    valleys of an inconstant nature.

    Sometimes you see someone and you start to think that maybe they’ve changed…

    Changes twisted essence hides behind pretense, shelters beneath shame.
    It doesn’t really matter that we’ve changed, the only question is what
    we’ve lost and what we’ve gained.

    Right hand. Left hand. Feel the scars left by cracks healed; the mounds
    from valleys filled. Feel the new fissures in the present. New bumps.
    New holes.

    Have you ever wondered about opportunities lost, what could have been more? Illusions or truth? reason or pretense?

    The present yearns equally for the future as for the past. The need is
    to connect that broken circle. To make consistent all that was with all
    that ever could be through the filter of that which is. We change. We
    change back.

    Weigh them against each other. That which we were. That which we are.
    Left. Right. Feel the points where one is shallow, the places where the
    other is over dense. All so real, yet all so ephemeral.

    Juggle the aspects of our nature. Left to right. Circling ever after.
    That which was becomes that which could be. That which is yields to
    that which would be. Grasp at those aspects we dare not lose. Better be
    quick. Don’t miss a beat. Never a toss too hard or a catch too light.
    Drop but one piece and they’ll all scatter and be lost. So keep your
    eyes sharp, your mind and spirit ready. Connect with yourself again and
    again, piece by piece, aspect by aspect.  Faster. What I was. What I
    am.  Faster and faster. Catch and catch again. 

    Returning to what you were. Changing into something you’ve never been.
    The cycle of becoming flows and flows. What is and what was melds into
    and becomes what yet unknown will be.

    - Clef

  • i am a member of…

    OK, so I have accounts on….

    slashdot, youtube, linkedin, friendster, facebook, wikipedia,
    sourceforge, various google, various yahoo, various msn, skype, aol,
    amazon.com, icq,  xanga, blogger, ebay, livejournal, del.ico.us,
    schtuff, librarything, bookmooch, paperbackswap, zagat, digg, blip.tv,
    uncyclopedia, everything2, snapfish, fatwallet, SecondLife, and
    swaptree.

    And you know, those are only the ones I can remember off the top of my
    head and the ones I am willing to own up to. It also includes only
    primarily internet/networking based applications that allow you to
    connect or share in some way.  And it doesn’t take into account the
    fact that I keep multiple accounts on some of these services in order
    to achieve a certain degree of pseudo-anonymity at times. It’s an
    illusion of course. We are destined to have everything about us
    scattered to the winds for all to know.  That much is pretty much
    inevitable. Still, I like to segment off aspects of my personality into
    various identities as well. This helps keep me sane and makes it easier
    to write without having to worry about if I am contradicting myself too
    frequently.

    Anyway, many of the sites I have listed fall into certain categories ie
    ‘blogging sites’, ‘social networks’, ‘forums’, etc.  But really the
    differences between this plethora of applications seems to grow smaller
    every day. More and more are adding social networking capabilities,
    blogging capabilities, wiki capabilities, video sharing capabilities,
    reviewing capabilities, instant messaging capabilities, cell phone
    integration, etc. etc.  Currently most cater to a specific crowd or a
    specific area of expertise, but all are also trying to expand their
    membership to be as inclusive as possible. The more membership an
    application has, the more useful to users it becomes the more members
    it gets and so on.  I didn’t event mention any online gaming
    applications which can often be just as immersive and include as many
    of these connecting and sharing features as these other sites that
    focus only on those things do. (I am also a member of world of
    warcraft, guildwars, magic: the gathering online, xbox live, whatever
    that wii network is called, and I used to be on final fantasy xi)

    So eventually many will ask the obvious question, when exactly is
    enough enough? One could spend a life type traversiing the internet
    joining groups, building networks, meeting and interacting with people.
    You could have memberships in hundreds  of sites not even counting the
    necessary financial sites and online store memberships and online
    memberships in real world groups and organizations. One wonders, do we
    really need so many?

    Actually, it doesn’t really bother me that much, at least as far as the
    social sites go. They are all competing with one another and so far it
    appears that the best of class applications have been bubbling to the
    top and people just jump ship from the old apps to the new ones. They
    don’t get rid of their old accounts though, they just spend all their
    time on the newer better apps. Hence we end up with lots of discarded
    pieces of our identity scattered amongst decaying applications. That’s
    a little disturbing, but not particularly so. As long as the
    competition is fierce people will derive great benefit from these
    various tools to re-imagine and re-organize their lives and they will
    keep getting better. I do have a personal objection to how these apps
    in general lack decentralization and don’t even try to provide the
    option for anonymity. They’ve gotten better at letting you filter what
    you make visible to others, but there’s still much work to be done in
    that area. But all of those are minor details. Overall the applications
    are extraordinary and I say the more the merrier.

    But speaking of merry, one thing that bothers me is this. Why do so
    many of these apps seem so dang cheerful? I mean they’re all so bubbly
    and bright. Light and happy and pleasant in virtually every way. You
    would think from perusing the surface of these networks that the world
    is made out of sunshine and lolly pops. No suffering. Even the most
    serious of subjects is brightly serious. They exude the aura of “we’re
    all friends here, we get along with absolutely everybody!” And on top
    of that there’s an added aura of “We’re all happy successful people
    without a care in the world.” That’s why I feel a kind of cognitive
    dissonance when I peruse these networks. I like the atmosphere
    and I can’t for the life of me see a thing wrong with it, and yet this
    one aspect of it bothers me so.

    Probably the heart of it is, that the more main stream these software
    become, the more they reflect standard norms of social interaction.
    That is to say, you put your best foot forward and try to make a good
    impression and all that. So there’s a kind of carefulness, a respect
    and concern for appearances and interpretations that it seems to me
    that I have been rebelling against ever since I was a very small child.
    And no I don’t want to even begin to analyze the reasons behind that.
    Suffice it to say, I like it when people really don’t care what anyone
    thinks, rather than simply giving the appearance of being carefree. I
    would rather that people adapt to the uniqueness of others rather than
    try to make themselves less obviously unique in order to cause the
    least dissonance.

    This is not a criticism, just an observation, and perhaps even a flawed
    limited observation. As I dig deeper into these kinds of newly forming
    institutions I will find that they really are just as varied and
    complex and interesting as the real world upon which they are based. It
    may gall me to have to peal away the surface glitter, but it really is
    only the most minor of hardships.

    One thing for sure all of this is just one other aspect of how utterly
    extraordinary the internet really is. It is a unique new world that
    spawns a plethora of unique new worlds. I mean really what could
    possible be more awesome? 

    I am convinced that if humanity were to end tomorrow, a future species
    that evolve on this planet were to look back and study our
    accomplishments the one thing that we did that would most awe and
    impress them would be the creation of this amazing thing called the
    internet.  And if by some chance we as a species do survive for a few
    more millenia, I have little doubt that future historians will look
    back and determine that the major turning point that changed the future
    of humanity was of course the invention of the internet. Not traveling
    to the moon, not mastering electricity, not the invention of writing,
    not the establishment of governments and democracy. No. The internet
    and all that spawned from it. That will be the lasting most profoundly
    important development in the history of humanity so far. I am proud to
    have lived in such times as these, observing the creation of this new
    world order. And I can’t wait to see what happens next.

  • security and insecurity

    Insecurity is a fascinating word for a profound concept. It is a word that I have rarely used
    or thought about until recently and that makes me wonder as to the why
    of it. Many seem to instinctively rely on the concept of “insecurity”
    as an essential pillar of their self view or their world view. I don’t
    disagree, its just that I think I have spent much of my mental energy
    on its opposite, the concept of security.

    Now I will try to turn directly to the concept of insecurity but I
    think in order to gain any traction in my understanding I will have to
    start with the opposite concept and work my way back from there. This I
    think is a reasonable approach when trying to get a grip on any concept
    that begins with an “in”, since it means the term is essentially bound
    to its opposing entity.

    The way I have come to understand security is like Linus Torvalds said
    in a talk I watched online recently, “security work is all about
    networks of trust” (yes, many others have said similar things…). When you understand security in that fashion lots
    of things fall into place that don’t otherwise make sense if you think
    of security as walls or locks and keys or any other such mechanism. It
    also makes concepts outside of typical physical security more coherent.
    “monetary security”, “mental security”, “emotional security”, “job
    security”,  they all can be understood under the same framework. They
    are all about who you trust and who they trust and so on and of course
    all along the line asking the questions of why do you trust, or why
    should you trust and so on.

    Businesses build up their security network by hiring people. They have
    no choice in this matter. The core of any businesses security is who
    works for them. No matter of fancy software or clever locks and gates
    will make a damn bit of difference if there is an inside man in your
    business. What’s more you have to hire somebody so you have to pick out
    of a usually rather large pool of applicants people to work at the
    industry. You have to try to find somebody in that group that you can
    can trust. Not only do they have to trust the people that they hire,
    but implicitly they are also trusting the people who the people that
    they hire trust as well and so on down the line. Trust is essential in
    the hiring process since a breach of trust could run deeper than just
    having an unreliable untrustworthy employee who doesn’t get his or her
    work done, it could open up a business to severe liabilities.

    This is why businesses take so much stock in the recommendations of
    their employees even though objectively we might argue that this is
    unfair to perfectly capable applicants who are applying without that
    inside support.  A business that hires someone recommended by an
    employee is explicitly extending that network of trust. They are
    banking on the trust they already have for that employee being directly
    applicable to the person that employee knows on the grounds, sometimes
    shaky grounds, that the person wouldn’t have recommended another for
    the job if the person didn’t in some significant way trust that person.

    Another strategy businesses use to try and secure themselves is to do
    background checks. Now interestingly enough these background checks are
    themselves all about digging into someone’s trust network in order to
    validate the degree to which the person can be trusted. The
    investigators go around talking to family members and friends of the
    person, direct or indirect acquaintances to try and find out what the
    people who the person trusts thinks about the person and to try and
    make sure the network is a real existing thing. Sometimes to dig deeper
    an investigator may go to the people who the person trusts trusts and
    so on down the line validating the testimony and sincerity of each
    interviewee against the others looking for inconsistencies that might
    set off alarm bells making someone not trust another person.

    Now that we understand that basic idea of security, let’s turn now to
    the idea of insecurity in the same context. Insecurity then obviously
    would be a lack of security. Explicitly that means a break in that
    network of trust, a node that cannot be trusted or a communication line
    between nodes that leaks to others outside of the network who are not
    trusted entities. Communication lines are easy, you just try and secure
    the lines as much as possible. No matter how trustworthy your people
    are, it is pointless if anyone can sit outside a business with a laptop
    and ease drop on all of their data. It is also along the same lines
    important for a business to not just worry about internal communication
    but work as hard as possible to empower their employees to have secure
    lines of communication with the people that they trust. Obviously you
    ask them not to blabber about company secrets to others, but
    realistically you have to acknowledge that some employees probably will
    blabber. It is inevitable. If you are really concerned about minimizing
    the risk of insecurity and not just about having someone to blame when
    a security breach occurs, you will work to ensure your employees
    outside of work communications are secure as well. That could mean
    anything as simple as buying them a secure home computer system or as
    complex as paying for their home in an area that the business feels is
    secure against outside influence.

    Insecurity in the nodes themselves is a not harder. How do you really
    know ultimately if a person is trustworthy? Or more to the point in the
    real world, how much trust should you put in each node and when?
    Employers often have to decide between various amounts of information
    to provide to each employee. How open should  they be? How closed
    should they keep the circle?  One of the things that makes it complex
    is the nature of humanity. People respond by being more trustworthy
    when they are trusted. They become less trustworthy when they feel
    information is being withheld from them or that they are interact in a
    less than open environment. So businesses must balance the need to
    treat each employee on a somewhat equal level with the simple fact that
    in any network not all nodes are equally trusted.

    Now anyway, insecurity in other matters beside the physical is
    similarly about dealing with breaches of trust. Actually, when the term
    insecurity is applied to other matters it is usually not about actual
    known insecurities.  Rather we are most concerned about “feelings of
    insecurity”. That is, that sense one might have that one or more of
    nodes or connections in their network of trust is not secure or more
    often lacking evidence to determine whether or not it is secure, the
    feeling that maybe perhaps they put too much trust in one or more nodes
    too quickly or with too little justification.

    Insecurity can arise from a lot of things. Sometimes its just
    suspicions and intuitions. There can be a feeling that things aren’t
    quite right based on subtleties that an outside observer would not
    recognize and sometimes which a person themselves could not describe to
    others. Other times insecurity can arise from hard evidence that is
    impossible to ignore though sadly far too easy to misinterpret. Still
    other times insecurity can be heightened by stresses on the system.
    Since all security networks are based on rational decisions that we
    make and reaffirm day by day, any time when we start to doubt our
    decision making processes or when our mind is not processing at 100% we
    will likely start to doubt our trust network as well. Certainly
    “impending” major events fall into that category of adding stresses to
    a system. All the more so if the events require choice that is not
    wholly governed by rational thought to begin with and thus subject
    inherently to distrust.

    There are other ways insecurity can come about as well. One of the
    biggest is through misinformation. You can get that misinformation from
    all sorts of places, but most often it comes from  communication with
    untrustworthy entities, or entities that can be trusted but not about
    matters for which they are being consulted. To throw out a trivial
    example, a web forum is really no place to go for trustworthy advice
    about anything for the most part and yet people rely on getting advice
    from random people on the web all the time. Most of often they get
    information that flatters them or fulfills their expectations and they
    trust it on those grounds rather than its necessary basis on reality.
    That can have a huge distorting effect on one’s trust outlook.  But
    much more often I think people become insecure by reasonably consulting
    with people that they do trust and have good reason to trust, but about
    matters for which the people they trust don’t have enough information
    to form valid judgments. Those people aren’t being deliberately
    deceptive, but they may well provide information or advice that is bad
    through their ignorance.  There is a subconscious component of this
    too. We are likely to provide our trusted entities with just enough
    information to form the opinions that we want them to form and thus
    much like the random jaunt to the web forums for advice, you take back
    the information that flatters you and affirms your pre-existing
    judgments or at least makes making those judgments easier. Consultation
    is never guaranteed to be effective but it is far more likely to be if
    being based upon a shared information base that is similar in scope.
    Also, disinterested advice is likely to be more helpful than those who
    have self interests bound up with the matter of discussion.

    Perhaps the most obvious cause of insecurity in the inward cause.
    People feel insecure about something when they doubt themselves. In
    other words all trust networks have a subjective central node, a “you”
    as it were. That node forges connections with other trusted entities.
    If that node comes to distrust itself, then it will distrust the
    connections it creates. It is like having your home computer with a
    virus on it. You can’t really do anything with that computer until you
    get rid of the virus, because every connection it makes, every image it
    shows you, every avenue of communication you have with the computer is
    untrustworthy. The computer has been compromised. You have to distrust
    everything about it until the situation is rectified.

    So with ourselves. If we feel we are “compromised”, that is inherently
    incapable of making trustworthy judgments, we will be distrustful of
    others and feel insecure. Even if this arises later on, a person is
    likely to start to doubt earlier trustworthy judgments not made while
    “compromised”. One wonders about his or her inherent nature much like
    you might wonder if your infected computer was ever really “secure” to
    begin with. Maybe hackers were there messing with my stuff all along!
    And it could be true of course, but that kind of self-distrust is
    radically disruptive and dangerous.

    Tightly bound with this idea of self-doubt induced insecurity is the
    idea of external-doubt induced insecurity.  Recall what I said earlier,
    people are likely to become more trustworthy when they feel trusted.
    Sadly, the opposite is not an equal but a greater force. When you feel
    that the entities you trust don’t trust you in return it will make you
    question why that would be or how that could be and thus start to doubt
    yourself and hence as a consequence you start to doubt your trust
    network decisions and feel insecure.

    So those are some of the ways in which insecurity can arise I believe.
    And of course in the real world, it’s never just one of those things…

    And when there is more than one, there is the possible and likelihood
    of good old feedback loops that grow insecurities further and broader
    than they were before. The simplest example, person A doesn’t trust
    person B so person B doesn’t trust person A causing person A to trust
    person B even less and so on.  Worse, when person A starts to feel
    insecure, person A might make insecure judgments about whom to trust
    and then those untrustworthy entities could provide information that
    increases person A’s insecurity. Person B might start to feel insecure
    and that insecurity inhibits their ability to handle their work load
    making person B feel even less secure. And so on and so forth.

    One of the biggest signs of a trust network starting to break down is
    when entities start actively looking for hard evidence upon which to
    base their pre-existing insecurities. Why? Because if and when data is
    found, (and there’s almost always something to be found) it accelerates
    the feedback mechanism. ie it will seem like the ultimate breach of
    trust on all sides eroding whatever foundations remain within the trust
    network. Businesses go through a very hard time when there are scandals
    involving management investigating their employees directly. This
    usually leads to pretty massive exoduses of employees who choose to go
    elsewhere where they feel they will be more trusted. Only those
    businesses that have a strong foundation of trust built upon many years
    tend to avoid such a calamity.

    But there’s a much better example of trust-network collapse in the real
    world than wire-tapping scandals.  It’s what’s happening in the United
    States as a whole after 9/11. Really I’ve never seen such a more
    massive and swift trust breakdown amongst two larger groups. In the US
    currently we live in an era of radical distrust for both our government
    and our fellow citizens. The most “open” and “free” country in the
    world is under the grips of what I can only call a kind pf mass
    internal psychosis. There was a story on npr one day not long ago that
    made me cry it was so indicative of this problem. It was describing a
    kind of grotesque distortion of a political debate between two radical
    members of the Left and the Right in a part of the world evenly
    ideologically riven between the two groups. It was a kind of sick and
    terrifying farce in that both sides virtually ignored each other,
    catered to their respective crowds and there were no attempts
    whatsoever of trying to gain any sense of shared understanding with the
    other side. These people were neighbors living in the same country
    under pretty much the same circumstances but as far as they were
    concerned those neighbors had become “the enemy”. Trust was no longer
    even an option. It is as if the trust network of the US is riven in
    half along strict ideological lines.

    One way you can sort of see how this is happening is looking at the way
    in which communication is occurring in the US. Politics has become
    almost entirely about finding ways to attack and discredit your
    political opposites. To that ends we are constantly investigating one
    another trying to find that smoking gun that we generalize and prove
    that “those people” don’t have our best interests at heart and that
    “those people” can’t be trusted and are dangerous to be around. And we
    find it. Again and again we find reasons to hate one another
    solidifying our distrust.  And all the while that insecurity we feel
    increases. Our uncertainty about the future increases and we live in
    perpetual doubt. Mark my words, we are heading toward a very bad place
    politically if this current trend continues. Fortunately I do see signs
    of it abating a little so only time will tell.

    This of course brings me to the heart of the idea of insecurity, the
    true cause of causes, and it should be obvious what is by now since it
    often serves the role as the true cause of causes of pretty much
    everything I write about. Funny that. The human experience is driven by
    such a few small but profound concepts that give rise to a plethora of
    varied interesting ideas.

    Anyway, what is that cause? You guessed it. Fear.

    Post 9/11 ideological rifts increased in the US not decreased. Why is
    that? Because we’re afraid. Why do we distrust each other and
    ourselves? Why do we do stupid things? Why do we think harmful
    thoughts? Why do we live false lives and make dangerous decisions? Why
    do we look outside ourselves for validation and support? Why do we take
    everything so seriously? Because we are afraid. I’ll just leave it at
    that.

    So alright then if we understand what insecurity is: a breach in a
    network of trust. And we understand what causes it: fear. Can we say
    something now about what stops it? What to do about it?

    The answer actually derives pretty directly from the analysis we’ve
    already gone through. To heal insecurity, you build a network of trust.
    And by that I mean actually a network on a lower level than the
    trust-network between people. I mean to build a network of trust
    between events and choices. One trustworthy act that implies or creates
    another. One word of honesty that leads to another. Connections between
    ideas and words and thoughts and actions. Trust here to feel more
    confident about trust there and less fear of distrust elsewhere.

    It sounds so obvious that we must naturally think “oh that will never
    work”. And it might not. Not all networks of trust can be reformed at
    all. And some that are reformed are not reformed in the same way. The
    new connections that take the place of the old severed ones might have
    to go across different pathways. If there are any opportunities to
    build those connections even at the smallest level than the possibility
    of the elimination of insecurity exists no matter how destructive the
    downward spiral of insecurity can seem. The answer to a downward spiral
    is an upward spiral and such a spiral can only arise moment by moment
    piece by piece. It’s never fast and can never be rushed. It’s a day by day kind of a thing.

    Some might question whether every breach of trust should be healed, and
    there may be some good arguments that not all should. But I tend to
    disagree. Security seems to me to always be better than insecurity and
    it’s always beneficial to have some level of trust of others if at all
    possible than none.

    Of course there is one other aspect of building security that I’d like
    to touch on that people often forget to take into account. And that is
    the sometimes inherent value of taking security risks.

    Again turning to the business world as an example, some companies come
    to realize that they have to take considerable risks with their
    security to be able to establish deeper long term security. The
    simplest example is hiring students fresh out of school. For those, a
    business has no record of that students trustworthiness in a business
    setting to go by. They don’t have particularly relevant testimony to
    base their decision upon. What’s more the very young are more likely to
    leave and look for another job taking their knowledge with them.

    And yet if a company only hires people who have been in the industry
    for a while that lack of risk taking can be extremely detrimental to a
    companies long term chances of success. You need the influx of new and
    fresh ideas that students bring and you need people who are young and
    can learn quickly and be very adaptive.

    Another good example is when a company chooses to hire someone who is
    known for being willing to break into computer networks for their own
    gain as an expert to advise on securing the business. This probably
    isn’t a big risk but it certainly can be perceived at one. Indeed in
    general it would seem risky to hire anyone who has already proven that
    they are smarter than you and willing to do things to your detriment
    for their advantage. And yet, betimes this is the best thing you can
    do. That expertise you won’t get anywhere else and to get the best work
    you need the most intelligent people you can get. But each person you
    hire is a risk.

    Amongst governments, security risks are essential too. Governments
    often need to ally themselves with untrusted enemies in order to
    achieve some ends. The enemy of my enemy is my friend and all that.

    Now how come taking big security risks can work out? Surely if you are
    starting off with a foundation of distrust that would lead to spiraling
    insecurities like the kind I’ve described above wouldn’t it?  The
    answer is, not necessarily. When you take a security risk, it often
    means putting unfounded and even unjustified trust in an entity. And if
    there has been any theme at all to this giant essay of random musings,
    it is that trust yields trust and vice versa. So if you take a risk in
    adding a node in a trust network to an entity that you might have good
    reasons not to trust that node may eventually become a node worthy of
    your trust and perhaps even one day your most trusted node of all. Of
    course you tread cautiously in such matters.

    Actually, all initial connections are leaps of trust in this manner. We
    rarely have any *good* reasons to trust anyone a priori. It’s just that at any
    given moment in our lives we are so grounded in trust-networks that we
    often find it difficult to distinguish to what extent we are making or
    strengthening a connection on faith alone versus a connection on
    reason. 

    But what I am trying to say here is that both kinds of connections can
    turn out to be valuable.  Sometimes taking the greatest risks can prove
    to yield the greatest benefit. Sadly though, we never know.

  • life and luck

    I wonder why everyone’s life seems so screwed up?  I think there was an idiot philsopher I once read who wrote about the inherent gap between our expectations and the reality in which we live that dooms us to live in near perpetual torment. We are hard wired for it, he argued. For some reason I can’t recall who it was. I’ll give you a cookie if you can tell me his name. Or maybe I just made that up right now. Anyway I think there is truth to it.

    I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t regularly plagued with fear, uncertainty, and doubt; pain, anger, and regret. I’ve never met anyone who didn’t seem to forever be plagued by hardships, some unexpected, some expected, some  (many? most?) caused by the person themself. Indeed it seems as if, if you notice someone who doesn’t seem to have any problems than that’s a person who you just don’t know very well. Either that or they are living in a cave. Actually that’s not true, every cave I’ve ever seen was rife with opportunities to encounter suffering. You’d have to live somewhere where all of your needs are taken care of without the least bit of effort and yet without needing to encounter anyone or anything at all. In short, an impossible scenario.

    But maybe I’m wrong. Maybe there is somebody who is always content and never had a problem or a worry their entire life. If such a person exists and happens to be reading this blog, I implore you! Stop whatever you are doing! And run for president. Right now. In fact just go ahead and take over the world! We need your luck to guide us through the horrors of reality.

    Or better yet, just come over here and be my familiar so that you can guard me from troubles and tribulations. How great would that be? If he were my familiar I could even send him out on missions to ensure that others find reprieve from strife. “Go forth luck familair! Save my friends from their folly!” Or something like that. And then when it is done I would call it back and give it a treat. Good job luck familiar. Thanks for a job well done.

    Hmmm, I think I will write a story about a luck familiar. It will be a good story.

    Alas in life we don’t have luck familiars and few of us will ever bridge that gap between our expectations and our experiences. But as we have no choice in that matter but to try, we might as well do our best and try to have fun with it if we can.

  • sandbox life

    I recently started researching various sandbox programs that can be run on your home computer to add a new layer of security to your computing experience. The idea behind them is an extraordinary one. Create a separate environment where everything you do doesn’t matter at all. At the end it can all be wiped out as if it never happened, erased from history at least as far as the rest of your computer is concerned. What a wondrous thing!

    This got me to thinking about how cool it would be if in the real world you could have sandboxes. Whenever you wanted you could choose to enter into a mode where all choices you make have a fundamentally “experimental” character to them. You could try a bunch a things, try as hard as you can with them and see if they work out. If they don’t, throw out the session, wipe it away as if it had never happened and continue on with your life. Unlike with reset points you don’t even end up taking up more absolute time. You don’t go back to the point before you entered the sandbox, rather you simply exit the sandbox and from that point on your decisions have permanence to them.

    To use the classic trivial example.  I could decide today that tomorrow I am going to march into my bosses office and demand a raise. But realizing this is a risky business, I decide to make tomorrow a sandbox day. 

    So tomorrow comes and I go through my normal day until I build up the courage and march in and ask. There are several possible outcomes.  One I could get shot down in a manner that is extremely embarrassing or worse could even lead to my ultimately being fired. Two, I could not get shot down, and the encounter could end up completely neutral with my status not changing at all. Three, I could not get shot down and not be given the raise, but determine that my boss has gained a new found appreciation for my ambition that might lead him to provide more opportunities for me to distinguish myself so that I can get that raise, or four I could be given the raise but my boss might feel more wary of me creating greater tension at the office and life unpleasant for me, or five I could be given the raise and all is well.

    Now if 5 happens I’d obviously keep the results. With 1 I obviously discard the results. If 2 happens I would probably discard the results anyway so that record of my having asked for a raise doesn’t exist? Why have unnecessary extra data lying around?  If 3 or 4 happens I might consider keeping it but I’d have to think about it. 3 might lead me to have to do more work which I might not like, and 4 might lead me to end up having to get a new job which I may or may not be happy with doing.   In these cases I just stay within the sandbox for a few more days to see how it turns out. Once I reach a point where I can determine that I definitely want to discard or keep the results then I can exit the sandbox either dropping everything that happened or saving all of the data back to the real world life environment.  And best of all in none of these situations do I have to suffer through replaying that unpleasant day at work again. The world moves on.

    How awesome would that be? You’d have a situation where you could act with total impunity. Who needs to worry about what other people think or what they might do or how your life might be ruined by a momentary lapse in judgment. Just so long as whenever you are about to make a questionable decision, remember to put it in the sandbox and your safe. In fact you’d probably want to keep all of your decision points inside the sandbox until you are sure of their consequences.  Now obviously to be perfectly safe you’d combine the sandboxes with the save points (both inside and outside of the sandbox). Then even if you screw up and fail to discard detrimental event sequences because they “looked” beneficial at the time, you can go back and do it again and do it in the sandbox too so just in case it turns out differently you can re-evaluate whether you want to keep the results.

    Perhaps one of the great problems with the world is that we don’t have the power of sandboxes cushioning our decisions. This tends to make us too cautious and too unforgiving. It makes us cautious because we tend to think of all of the potential negative consequences of an act and hold off from doing it until we are positive that we can do the thing in a manner that causes no harm, or more often until we are sick of waiting. Ironically the “sick of waiting” scenario is the worst of all worlds, because you end up acting without thought even though you spent a great deal of time thinking about it, just because the dwelling was so much more unpleasant than the acting.

    Not having sandboxes also makes us unforgiving of one another. This is a little counterintuitive to understand at first as your first instinct is to think that if everyone knows that there are “no take backs” in life we’d all be rather sympathetic about how unpleasant an experience it must be for each of us when we make a Bone Headed mistake. We know our own capacity for stupidity and we know how very complex navigating the gargantuan world of possible outcomes can be. You’d think that would make us appreciative of the difficulties others face and forgiving of them when they lapse and don’t meet the challenges appropriately?

    But alas it isn’t so. Rather, we dwell upon how hard we had to work and how careful we were to make just the very best decision in a particular circumstance and then when we see someone else who makes a bad decision, it kind of pisses us off. We get indignant.We think: why didn’t he try harder! What’s wrong with him, didn’t he stop and think!  It offends us to think that after all of our hard work somebody else might act on whim and shortcut past our anguish and uncertainty. It offends us when it works out for that other person even though they didn’t try very hard, and it offends us just as much when someone screws up for we assume that the cause of that screwup is their lack of sufficient trying.

    But if we lived in a sandbox world! Oh how different it would be! If somebody else screws up you’d just say to that person, “you better erase that last event”. And it’d be done and nobody would be offended in the least. We’d expect screwups as we know that everybody is trying things about relying on the power of the sandbox to prevent hardship.

    Of course, that probably means the sandbox world would end up with the exact opposite problems as the non-sandbox world.  People would be not cautious enough. We wouldn’t take the time to reason through alternatives discarding the very worse and saving us all time and energy. Why bother! If it doesn’t work, we’ll just erase it! We’d live in a chaotic world where everything is changing left and right.

    And we’d also probably be [I]too[/I] forgiving of one another. If someone says or does something vicious or cruel to us in the current world we condemn that person, but in a sandbox enabled world maybe you’d just erase it and thus avoid the need to be judgmental.  We’d be letting people get away with choices that they should be responsible for, and it’d just be kind of screwed up. Even if someone screwed up and made a mistake that they committed rather than discarded with their sandbox, we’d be less likely to pass judgment on him just  because we ourselves would have so much experience with screwups and mistakes under our belt and be so used to making questionable decisions that we’d have a hard time condemning anyone for their choice. We’d think, it could have easily been me, every time no matter how terrible the crime. And perhaps worst of all we wouldn’t go through that hard complex and rewarding process of struggling to find forgiveness within ourselves for things that are usually unforgiving. We’d forgive on a whim. The very idea would lose all meaning.

    Ironically there are probably people who live in this world as if they were in a sandbox. They jump from job to job, from relationship to relationship, from adventure to adventure without a second thought about the consequences of their decisions. Indeed these people tend to stand out to our minds and inspire a kind of ‘awe’ in us at their free spirited lifestyle and unwillingness to compromise.  Sometimes they even inspire us to try and choose to live more like this, since it would make us less prone to worry and fear and less inclined to take things too seriously. We would feel “free” and our actions would be our own. No need to be perfect. No need to even be careful. Just live and be happy and do whatever you want.

    But the problem is, when you live in the real world as if you were in a sandbox you have to suffer a third kind of negative consequence. Obviously you have to be more forgiving of others and yourself and you have to be less careful with your decisions. Maybe your ok wit that. But the third is much harder I think for most people to tolerate.

    You also have to be less caring.

    That is the great detriment of the free spirit lifestyle.  In order to act as if you were in a sandbox, since you can’t actually erase the consequences of your careless actions, you have to live with them somehow. The only way to do that is to not care. Not care about the harm you cause or the people you hurt. Just live on free as a bird, but just as likely to crap on the people you encounter and not clean up after yourself.

    Obviously we don’t want that! But we don’t want to live in tense equilibrium terrified to do anything  and angry at everyone who ever does either. So what kind of life can we lead that splits the difference? I haven’t found the answer. Obviously there must be some kind of Aristotlean balance.  My current theory is that the most important component of achieving that balance is to strive for a deeper appreciation for the present. You have to live in the now, enjoying things that are as much as they can be enjoyed while setting aside the things we want changed or made better and calmly and comfortably think about how to slowly move toward that better state piece by piece. No need for major shifts or big momentous turning points. No need to stop caring either. Just care primarily about the things that are good and appreciate them before dwelling on the bad. Maybe this is sort of like a Zen philosophy. Or is it Tao? I don’t know, but it makes more sense to me now than other ways to lead ones life.

    Of course if you live this way and things don’t get better and you can’t find a way to move toward a better state calmly and carefully without worry, chances are good that you will be inclined to act and that means either a cautious action or a sandbox action and in either case the consequences might not be pleasant. Or they might be. Who knows? Its just too bad that it is so difficult for us to live happily in the present forever…

  • An extraordinary presentation

    Lessig’s framework for understanding the 20th and 21st centuries is extraordinary and key to being about to talk about any of the many things that are happening with copyright law and the internet in a coherent fashion whether or not you agree with him. I do of course. Completely. But undoubtedly some will now.

    The quality of this video isn’t so great but still I can’t recommend it enough.

    Lawrence Lessig Speech at Wikimania 2006

    49 min 14 sec – Aug 7, 2006
    Average rating:   (14 ratings)
    Description: Lawrence Lessig speech at Wikimania 2006, taped by Damian Finol, released under the CC-by-nc-sa license.

  • DeathNote

    Death Note is a fascinating anime series that I have started watching. It has a bit of a philosophical bent if a twisted one. It asks the question if you had the power to eliminate all of the evil people in the world, should you?

    The basic premise is this, the main character finds a mysterious notebook dropped on the ground by the mysterious Death Gods. The note book has instructions on it written in English that basically say if you know a person’s name and their face you can cause them to die through using this notebook. So the main character a high school kid named “Light” (a great name by the way imo,  I wish they hadn’t ruined its reputation by using it for this character) is at first afraid and shocked but pretty quickly decides that the obvious thing to do is to use the notebook to cleanse the world of all evil and create a perfect world which he can rule over as a God. Yes he’s a total jerk and fundamentally evil IMO but it is clear that the series is trying to make the moral aspects a little ambiguous with this character. After all he is getting rid of the evil people in the world.

    Anyway, the other important aspect of the series is that there is a foil to this pseudo-villain protagonist. Once they realize that all of the worlds worst criminals are dieing and they can’t figure out the cause, the worlds governments call upon their ace in the hole, a genius detective who goes only by the name of “L” and never appears in person (though of course there’s no doubt he is also around the age of a High School student I mean this IS anime afterall). Hence begins the complex mental battle between Light and L where at stake is nothing less than the fate of the entire world.

    The series is a lot of fun. It has the feel of a detective story if and oddly backwards and twisted detective story. I haven’t seen an anime with that kind of an aspect to it in a long time. Most are either more socially oriented or more overtly action packed. Few have that element of a mental duel. Here, the combat that takes place is one of words and tricks as each character tries to create situations where they can find more information about the other and expose their identity. Both Light and L believe that they are in the right and both use questionable methods to achieve their ends. That creates a fun kind of dynamic where you aren’t quite sure who you should be rooting for and makes it so that different viewers can come out of it with differing opinions about who is in the right. Artistically, the anime does a lot of cool things with color shifting of the characters hair and eyes at various key moments. At times Light can take on an angelic aspect and at other times a clearly devilish persona. Other characters have similar shifts. The artist who did the Manga is apparently the same one who drew the pictures for Hikaru no Go. BTW I’ve read the first volume of the manga too. It seems pretty identical to the anime.

    Of course the thing that interests me the most about this series is just the very idea of a Death Note. It can’t help but make you think. To ask those kinds of philosophical questions. You just can’t help but at least wonder what you would do if you had a Death Note at your disposal. Who would you kill? Who would you spare? And would you be justified in doing it?    Most I think from my observation would at least use it to kill a few of those who they perceive as the most terrible people in the world. A great many also though would say that they would refuse to use it at all since it would be principally evil to take human life. Its unclear how many of them would actually stick to that if it came down to it but I think a lot probably would. Many would surely destroy the notebook to avoid the temptation, those that don’t would have a substantive probability of at some point in their life succumbing to a crime of passion and use the notebook for revenge. It also seems likely that anyone who has used it a little is likely to increase in their use of it over time just because of the natural allure of the power it brings.

    As for me, I don’t think I would use it very much or at all but not out of some deep concern for the sanctity of human life. I wouldn’t use it primarily because I would not trust the data with which I could evaluate. Now make no mistake if I ever did have near perfect certainty that the consequences of the removal of a person would be good for the world I would use the notebook to do that. I’d still believe I was doing something evil and feel ashamed and likely also try to find a way to punish myself, but I’d also think it is my fundamental responsibility to do so. In this way perhaps I am a lot like Light even though I hate him so. The only differences perhaps are that he seems to put waaaay more faith in the veracity of the Justice systems throughout the world and the accuracy of what he sees on the news media. And of course the other difference is that he wants to rule the world which is an alien concept to me. Who would want that kind of a burden?

    Although I would be hesitant to use it and skeptical that I would ever find a situation where I was morally justified in removing someone because they are “evil” and the world would be better off without them, I also would not destroy the notebook for two reasons.  One is that it is an extraordinary artifact and I would hate to see the world loose such a thing. I would want to study it or at least preserve it for as long as possible just out of respect for the existence of such a thing. 

    The other reason is that there are certain situations whee I think that use of the death note is perfectly morally acceptable and for which I would feel significantly less guilt over  The first is the case where someone is directly imminently threatening the lives of others and there is no apparent way to stop him or her without the loss of lives or not enough time to stop him in time to prevent the loss of life or the suffering of people. In that case I would use the death note in the same way I might in the spur of the moment use any weapon I have at hand to stop someone from doing such an evil.

    The other case is if someone asked me to end their life and I could tell that they were serious and truly wanted it for legitimate reasons even if those reasons aren’t necessarily reasons I can understand. If there was no other way to grant that person their wish of death, I would use the death note to bring them peace.

    Two cases I’m on the fence about are these:

    If someone is directly threatening my own personal life, I would hesitate to use the Death Note because it feels like an unfair advantage to me. I would feel pretty dirty about using a otherwordly trick the person could not possibly have known about to end the persons life. Now if the person knows about the Death Note or better yet has a Death Note of his own well then I wouldn’t hesitate to use my Death Note to stop him from killing me as then it is fair.

    The most difficult scenario for me is a case where a figure willingly admits to having committed atrocities and proclaims a desire to commit more and are still at large. This seems like it should be cut and dry but I think it depends on the nature of the atrocities and the justifications behind them and the circumstances under which they were committed. Not because I believe any justification is valid for truly terrible atrocities but because I am not sure that simply Death Noting them to death would be the best course for the world. We may as a society grow and learn something from the pursuit apprehension, trial and bringing to justice of such criminals. But if they just die happily unbeknownst to the world who is to say what will happen next? Will their organization become more subtle and harder to stop, more fragmented and create chaos and strife in the regions they once controlled? Will they become a martyr for their cause? Will someone try to create some sort of pretend story to blame is death on others in order to further a political agenda? And so on and so forth… Again its that whole lack of knowledge thing. Who can make such decisions with certainty and not be lying to themselves?

    On the other hand if you could kill Hitler there’s no question that you should kill Hitler. You just have to take that risk because of the nature and severity of the crimes. If you choose not to then people will rightly make the argument that you share some of the responsibility for each person who suffers under his regime thereafter. Things could get worse, but in cases like that the probability of things actually getting substantively worse seem slim.

    Here’s another tricky one I haven’t really given much thought to but interests me. What if you were to discover someone who had gotten away with say murder and you had evidence that completely convinced you but nobody else knew and nobody else believed and nothing you could do would bing this evidence to the attention of others. What if in addition to that you also know that this person won’t kill again or at least is extremely highly unlikely to, but at the same time the person feels know remorse whatsoever for his act and take s great pleasure in the act he did, thinks he is totally morally justified in doing it. And you also don’t feel the person who was killed by the killer was an evil person who deserved what he got.  What then? The situation seems utterly unfair doesn’t it? But at the same time, who would I be to judge? And what good is the killing going to do? None whatsoever as far as I can tell. I think in the end I would opt not to use the Death Note in this scenario, but boy would it irk me. Now if you had some kind of Pain Note or a Misfortune Note I’d probably not be able to help myself.

    Anyway, those are the kinds of fun thoughts evoked by thinking about this twisted new anime that I think is definitely at least worth people giving a shot.